I should drown it all out, stop listening to my f-ed up heart and be rid of all the missing parts. Honestly though, pretty phrases are wasted on me. I just need to chill and be tolerant and zen-like and give people the impression I'm not about to explode any moment -which I really have no more reserves to do so anymore. I just feel so...misconstrued. My words, mannerism, actions, no matter how well-intentioned, are obsolete in the faces of the people around me, or that's how I feel anyways. For all my words, I just can't get my real intentions across. And it's partly my dumb fault, but I took some time to recognise what a pointless endeavor it is to plan your schedules around others.